Yes, I never thought I'd think driving could be bad, but it is. I'm not that great a driver, really, but this isn't about me! Once a guy has his driver's license, he can just go straight home and doesn't have to wait for his mom to pick him up. So that takes away up to two times a day you get to see him!... Yeah....
Gosh, what is it about certain people? That you get this funny feeling in your stomach when you're around them? And what kinda scares me is that it's probably not for everyone. I've always believed that there is one person perfect for just one other, but apparently not. I'm afraid I'm going to end up the lonely old cat lady that sits and plays Halo all the time. And, well, I've gotten to where I don't want to be alone all the time. If I can, I want to be with people. That's what really scares me about dieing, I think, is being alone. I don't want to be alone when it happens, I want someone with me, someone who'll care.
And gosh, why am I so impatient? I don't know, I may just be getting desperate. I end up falling too fast, and I'm kind of scared I'll get him scared. I'm only one person after all.
Dang, Miley Cyrus on American Idol is making my ears bleed. Yes, you needed to know that.
But yeah, just one of those things about life... This crazy little thing called love, I guess.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Sugar Honey Ice Tea!
Y'know what? Sometimes life just smacks you in the face with reality, and it's not always fair. I admit I've expressed my opinions on here quite a few times, but that's all it is, an opinion. I don't mean much by it, it's just what comes to my mind and I enjoy putting it down somewhere. So yeah, no offense intended anywhere. Wow, that sounds kinda harsh... but I don't mean it that way.
Reality? Time flies too fast. I'm 15. I'm in the 9th grade. I can drive (with a licensed adult over the age of 21). I hate realizing these things because it happens too fast. I used to be this quiet, geeky chick with like two friends, now I'm third chair flute, a good study partner/tutor, and I'm around a bunch of people all the time.
I miss my brother, and heck, I sorta miss my used-to-be brother. I miss my Mammaw who died last March, and it keeps me from sleeping at night because I'm afraid of myself or someone I know dying. I hate that said used-to-be was seemingly really offended by a post, and yeah, he has the right to be, I'm not saying I was right. I hate that the guy I like won't look at me and won't keep a conversation with me going. I hate how someone you used to be best friends with will just up and leave one day.
More reality? I don't know, just look around you. Just thinking about it kinda makes me sick. Sometimes I wonder if it's really the best thing to have children. My sister's pregnant right now, and eventually her baby will learn about life and death and God and everything in between. Sometimes that stuff weirds me out, and what if it weirds out little Lima? (family joke) I'm concerned because it would be nice to go through life on a breeze, but you'll learn sooner or later. That kind of worrying isn't a good feeling.
I know I have problems; we all do. Yes, even you, the perfect, toothpick-waist blonde in the back. And I don't know, you've just got to do what your heart tells you. Trust in God and he won't let you down. :)
And P.S. (for kicks and giggles) -- I have a huge, puppy crush on a guy whose best friend may or may not end up reading this... Kinda hope he does though, this is for him. :)
Reality? Time flies too fast. I'm 15. I'm in the 9th grade. I can drive (with a licensed adult over the age of 21). I hate realizing these things because it happens too fast. I used to be this quiet, geeky chick with like two friends, now I'm third chair flute, a good study partner/tutor, and I'm around a bunch of people all the time.
I miss my brother, and heck, I sorta miss my used-to-be brother. I miss my Mammaw who died last March, and it keeps me from sleeping at night because I'm afraid of myself or someone I know dying. I hate that said used-to-be was seemingly really offended by a post, and yeah, he has the right to be, I'm not saying I was right. I hate that the guy I like won't look at me and won't keep a conversation with me going. I hate how someone you used to be best friends with will just up and leave one day.
More reality? I don't know, just look around you. Just thinking about it kinda makes me sick. Sometimes I wonder if it's really the best thing to have children. My sister's pregnant right now, and eventually her baby will learn about life and death and God and everything in between. Sometimes that stuff weirds me out, and what if it weirds out little Lima? (family joke) I'm concerned because it would be nice to go through life on a breeze, but you'll learn sooner or later. That kind of worrying isn't a good feeling.
I know I have problems; we all do. Yes, even you, the perfect, toothpick-waist blonde in the back. And I don't know, you've just got to do what your heart tells you. Trust in God and he won't let you down. :)
And P.S. (for kicks and giggles) -- I have a huge, puppy crush on a guy whose best friend may or may not end up reading this... Kinda hope he does though, this is for him. :)
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Band trip video!!
Here goes, as promised! And yes, I know the audio is mostly bad... Picture's pretty good, though!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Band trips and my first YouTube video!
Tomorrow I have to wake up at 3:30 in the morning. Know why? We're going to Ridgeland for a concert festival! Sure, it'll be fun, but that's too early for anything. To make things more interesting, I'm bringing my video camera to record me and my friends being us :)
This'll be my first REAL YouTube video. Me and my cousin have been trying for a while to think of a good idea, so maybe this'll give us a head start. I found this great editing program from Microsoft, so I can just go ahead and fix up everything on my laptop. Hope to see you soon!
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This'll be my first REAL YouTube video. Me and my cousin have been trying for a while to think of a good idea, so maybe this'll give us a head start. I found this great editing program from Microsoft, so I can just go ahead and fix up everything on my laptop. Hope to see you soon!
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